so the other day, i was watching this show (which, so far, is one of the best things i’ve ever watched, but that’s another story), and the main character’s dad said this thing, which really struck a chord with me, because i realized that what he described is exactly the confusion that i’ve been feeling for a while now D:
(some things might get lost in translation; please excuse. but, basically this is what he said:)
deep inside every one of our hearts
we’re hiding this subconscious desire to become perfect.
but most people probably won’t have the chance to do so in their lifetimes
and don’t have the ability to properly express this desire.
that’s why we’re always so confused,
feeling that there are two sides of yourself.
one is the normal and simple me.
the other one is the me who always wanted to exceed limits
and create miracles
but between the two, we can only choose one.
( and i’ve just been wondering which one it is that i really want to choose. 3: )
in my mind right now.
i feel so relaxed and content, just spending time with the family, fan-girling over celebrities and fictional couples, working on my simple little android game, listening to a lot of music and falling behind in math class
and right now, i’m eating the most delicious home-made bread! mm-mm-mm ❤ this is happiness.
learning a foreign language enough so that you can pick up words/phrases/sentences when people who speak that language are speaking it near you and ohmygodtheydon’tevenknowhowmuchyouunderstandofwhatthey’resaying ahahaha~ such a fun feeling. i was smiling the entire time and silently LOL-ing, sitting beside these students conversing in their language, and i knew a lot of what they were saying, but they didn’t know that i knew! what fun! (don’t worry, i wasn’t eavesdropping on anything secretive. they were just trying to figure out some math, and i was helping them with it, so. yeah. ;D no worries~)
as my sister put it when i told her of this event
“wow, that’s like one of the best things that can ever happen to a person”
so i went to the apple store today, and i was waiting around for someone at the “genius bar” to help me, and one of the employees came up to me, and talked to me about why i was there and stuff, and then he told me to “go grab that stool”
and for a second, i was so confused because i thought he was asking me to go get a stool for him, and i was wondering why he would ask me, the customer, to grab something for him.
then he continued the sentence with “go grab that stool and hang tight” (still pretty confusing), but then he added “and we’ll come to you. so just, wait there for a moment.” or something like that, and it finally made sense.
wow, colloquial speech.
much too hip for me.
and a little confused.
and other things.
more details coming soon~