a couple questions.

would you say your life was more fun/enriching during your childhood?

if yes, what is it about life right now that makes it so much duller than it was as a child?

one of the problems i had last summer, and the one before, was…

[ the little adventure blog ] our mission: never stop finding new things to try

one of the problems i had last summer, and the one before, was keeping track of everything i did. i mean, at least for 2012, i had the journal and i used it regularly, but i lost track of all the pictures we took~ they just ended up scattered all over my laptop/desktop computers and only today (about two years late!) did i finally gather them all into one place, to select the photos i wanted to include on this post.

it’s funny because i always planned to keep a blog somewhere of everything we were doing during the summer of 2012. i think i started at least three different blogs (wordpress, blogger, tumblr), but they all ended up not getting updated on time. >.<” (an example being this little adventure blog (both on wordpress and tumblr), which was pretty much based on the same idea (keeping track…

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the problem with me is,

i (often) don’t know what i want.

see, if i did, then i would go for it.
because that’s what i believe in.

but i (often) don’t. (know what i really want).

 

 

and that’s the problem.

( just another novel excerpt – working title: to be happy )

or (it might be weird but) i want you to be happy. [working title]

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so, so fleeting.

 

you have to keep moving, keep talking, keep working

or else they forget.

 

one by one.

 

they all forget.

 

“there is no break from this prison.”

     that’s what he told me.

“this wonderful prison with gold walls, and silver mirrors, and admiration in the form of obsession”

     i didn’t know. i don’t know. i will never know.

“they put you up on this pedestal. but the legs are made of cotton balls, and the seat is made of wood, not brick. everywhere you look is sterling silver imitating gold. fake smiles and empty words imitating soul. the windows aren’t glassed, they are just bars; bars with gaps just wide enough for tomatoes and bullets made of words and burning lights and hatred. judgement. criticism. lies. lies. lies.”

 

but they don’t even know you. i plead.

 

and he just stares back at me.

 

i don’t mind.

i don’t look away.

 

until he finally adds:

“and what makes you think you do?”

 

 

( just another novel excerpt )

pleasebeokay,pleasebeokay,pleasebeokay

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i want to save you.

let me save you.

 

but you knew all too well, how hard it is to save someone who doesn’t want to be saved.

 

it’s more complicated than you think. he whispered.

much more complicated than you think. he whispered.

 

and then he walked away.

 

 

 

but you knew exactly what he meant.

 

FINALLY UPDATED MY NEW THINGS BLOG!

Check it out for the writing associated with each post. 🙂

I’m still not done though. >.<” there’s way more stuff I wanted to write about, before I start posting about this year’s carpe diem summer.

After lunch, I guess, I’ll resume posting everything.

Or maybe tomorrow.

hahaha, procrastination.

i joined a musical theatre class :<

so one of the things i’ve always loved was the idea of working on a huge project together with a lot of people, and then finally presenting it to an audience (like they do in those movies about performances and stuff xD).

i used to be one of the quieter kids back in elementary/middle school, so even if i was part of some of the school plays and performances, i always felt like i was kind of on the sidelines, or not really there.

and in high school, i didn’t join many clubs, nor take any drama classes, or anything, so.

i often felt like i kind of missed out on that feeling of a “performance”, haha.

 

so in the spirit of carpe diem summer,
my sister and I apparently decided to join a musical theatre class with a stage performance at the end i don’t know how this is going to go – the first class is today 😡 – and i’m a little nervous – i hope everyone there isn’t too much older than me – i have a knack for kind of embarrassing myself in situations, since i’m such a silly person LOL! – aaahhhh *fingers crossed* xD hope this goes welllll. wish me luck? :B

 

oh, by the way.
i have no experience in either singing or acting. oh my~

carpe diem summer~ (2012) :)

 

one of the best times of my life, that really changed the way i do things, the way i think about things, was this one summer we (my sister and I) refer to as “carpe diem summer”. (the above picture is something my sister created as a representation of our summer by the way. for a school project. :))

i’ve mentioned it a few times before, either on this blog, or my little adventure blog (or the tumblr equivalents of each), but i feel like i never really got to do a whole recap of it the way i’ve been meaning to.

 

quoting from my earlier posts, how the carpe diem summer started was basically this:

“

You don’t have to build a roller-coaster
To find your own way, to make the most of 
Every minute. No more waiting for the right time, you’re in it.
So grab those opportunities when you see ‘em!
‘Cause everyday’s a brand new day! You gotta’ carpe diem!
– Phineas and Ferb

Inspired by an episode we watched near the beginning of last summer [a Phineas and Ferb episode with a song about seizing the day (or “Carpe diem!”)], we got this idea to make the most of our summer by trying something new each day! Grabbing opportunities, doing things we always wanted to do, and letting go of inhibitions + getting in touch with our inner child…ren? xD

“

 

so basically, our goal was to go out and try new things everyday.

 

we didn’t have the ability (nor desire) to go on huge adventures like travelling the world or anything, but that was actually kind of the point.

(i mean, phineas and ferb do almost everything from the comfort of their backyard! ok not really, but you know what i mean, haha.)

 

the point was to make the most out of everyday opportunities! to look around for things that i usually miss. to be myself, be weird, be crazy, have fun and make some scenes.

instead of just spending all of my summer in front of the computer, or cooped up at home. 🙂

 

so.

step one.

we made a list of “summer goals”. started out pretty short and simple.

 

then.

we got this journal:

 

and our list of things to do started getting longer and longer.

it kept evolving, changing and growing, as summer went by, and by the end of it, we had something like this:

 

we had to edit a few of our original goals as we see fit.

(this is one of my favourites XD lol)

 

and most of all, we had a ton of fun:

 

🙂

 

anyway.

 

i learned a lot of things and all in all, this was one of the best times of my life. and i’m planning to do something like this again, for this summer! ^-^ my first summer out of undergrad (and before starting my master’s :O). but this time, we’re going to try to include our whole family, instead of just us two sisters, as much as we can. ^-^

 

and i would encourage everyone to try something similar! 😀

it doesn’t have to be when you’re on a break! you can just take on less time-consuming things, but there are so many many opportunities the world provides us with, there’s bound to be a ton that you could fit into your own schedule, however busy you may be (if you’re too busy to do even that, then maybe, start prioritizing things a little differently? ^-^ it’s always important to make the most of every moment we have here, so, please do. 🙂 there’s more to life than school and work and mindless media/internet consumption, and i hope we never lose sight of that.)

 

so here’s to wishing everyone all the best for the spring/summer 2014~ let’s go and keep going 😀

 

excited for all the new things we’ll discover this year. ^-^

#carpediemsummer

what carpe diem means to me.

one of my earlier posts, but it’s what i wanted to say right now. i always end up thinking about things like this, during the beginning of spring/summer, when i find myself with all this time on my hands since school is out and i have to decide all the things i want to do during my wonderful break. ^-^

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to me, carpe diem has always meant trying new things, seizing opportunities instead of letting them pass you by, and just stepping out of your comfort zone now and then. releasing your inhibitions. saying what you have to say, and doing what you want to do.

it doesn’t always have to be big, or scary. it just has to be something that you want to do. dreams don’t have to be big to be real. and it’s okay if your dreams don’t all come true. as long as you spend each day working toward something. anything. instead of living each day the same day as the one before that, and just letting time pass you by.

carpe diem is about realizing how precious each moment is. but just because each moment is precious, doesn’t mean that each of them have to be extraordinary.

they can be spent just hanging out with your family, or just taking some time by yourself to relax. that’s important too. 
just as long as you don’t lose sight of the fact that each day is a gift.

spend your life the way you want to, not the way others tell you. 
don’t be afraid of not conforming to the norm, but don’t be afraid to want the same things as others either. 
it’s okay to want a simple life. 
as much as it is to want an extraordinary one. 
just as long as its what you want it to be. 
and as long as it makes you feel like the time you spent here was worthwhile. if you can go to sleep each night feeling like there was at least something about the day worth remembering, that’s a day well spent.

personally, i believe that at the end of it all, if i can look back and think “wow, i’ve made some amazing memories here” i’d call that a success.

 

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