i’ve been –
look how the colours are changing.
the world is so much bigger, so much brighter, so much more
than i ever imagined.
– born anew.
is what i felt like. feel like.
i’ve been –
here and there and here and here
and i’m waiting and believing
and believing with all my heart.
– putting all my eggs here.
in an invisible basket.
i’ve been –
trusting and hoping and praying
and believing and painting
and drawing and waiting.
– here.
i’ve been holding on with all my might
because this is my life now
and it’s so much more, so much brighter, so much bigger
than i ever imagined.
but it’s held together by strings and gems
and gems and strings
please.
everything is connected, and –
i’ve been –
– string?
this is what i get for thinking.
but.
can you save me?
i’ve been –
look how the colours are changing.
everything’s turning a little greyer.
– here before.
i don’t want to go back.
i didn’t realize how (who knew i was so) fragile. i’ve been holding on
so. tight.
but sometimes, i still, i still,
sometimes, i still, need a hand.
i’ve been here for so long.
can you help me?