i’ve been –

i’ve been –
look how the colours are changing.
the world is so much bigger, so much brighter, so much more
than i ever imagined.

– born anew.
is what i felt like. feel like.

i’ve been –

here and there and here and here
and i’m waiting and believing
and believing with all my heart.

– putting all my eggs here.
in an invisible basket.

i’ve been –

trusting and hoping and praying
and believing and painting
and drawing and waiting.

– here.

i’ve been holding on with all my might
because this is my life now
and it’s so much more, so much brighter, so much bigger
than i ever imagined.

but it’s held together by strings and gems
and gems and strings
please.
everything is connected, and –

i’ve been –

– string?

this is what i get for thinking.

but.

can you save me?

i’ve been –

look how the colours are changing.
everything’s turning a little greyer.

– here before.

i don’t want to go back.
i didn’t realize how (who knew i was so) fragile. i’ve been holding on
so. tight.
but sometimes, i still, i still,
sometimes, i still, need a hand.

i’ve been here for so long.
can you help me?

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